I haven't blogged in quite a while but I feel a push in this direction so I'm going to flow with the "fresh wind". I want to know why is it that we can attain and soak up everything that has a negative connotation but those things that are positive we seem to not be able to reach, even mentally.
I know as a child, every negative thing that was spoken to me I grabbed a hold of I felt unworthy and ugly. I really thought I wouldn't amount to anything, but now that I have traveled this road a ways I understand that just because things don't spring forth immediately it is because they are being cultivated. When I look up, it often seems as if I am out here alone... In my world of hopes, dreams, and aspirations. I am not ignorant to the fact that God will move people because they may be hindrances or just plain no good for you. It just seems good, bad, or indifferent they are ALL gone!
When I made a decision to live life recklessly I had a mass of people thronging about me, now that I have decided to do something different, to chase something meaningful, and to have my name leave a sweet taste on the lips of those who say it, there is no one around. I feel as though I have ran people away from my circle, maybe I have made too many mistakes trying to get somewhere that I have never traveled before and not really reading the signs or traveling with no or low momentum.
I read on twitter that when you avoid something for fear of failure you also miss out on the opportunity to succeed. I decided today regardless of my failures I'm going to get up and try again, I'm going to try until I make it. I'm going to try until I make my parents proud. I'm going to try until I create a legacy for my children. I'm going to try until I am the best wife to my husband. I'm going to try until I am the best leader in my church and community. I am going to try until God stops giving me chances to try, so I guess I will try until I die....
When I say I want to be the best this or that I don't mean better than anybody else. I just want to be the very best ME that I can possibly be. I have spend too much time trying to mimic what good or pleasing things that caused another before me to be successful. I want to know what will make LaShaunta successful, what will make LaShaunta flourish, what will make God pleased with LaShaunta!! Perhaps this is the reason why I have felt like there is a drought in my field, but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt, where things look the most impossible is where God will step in and work a miracle on your behalf!! I have a different outlook on waiting, now I can wait in the midst of my productivity, everything doesn't have to shut down because one corridor is under construction. So beautiful people I AM BACK!!! I pray this post will not just be something else you read in the course of a day, but that it speaks to your situation and helps someone who may be feeling like I did. It's not over for you, the ref is saying get back in the ring, don't count your own self out!!!
Peace and blessings!
This is awesome. It comes a time when you have to let go of the things that tore you down wether it was something somebody did or something somebody say... we have to stop giving them power of our life. But we also have to have a mind set of that no matter what is done or said Im going to Prevail thur it all. Because wether you know it or not we need the negative just like we need the positive. The negative is brought to be our pusher to make us want to push past what people say to must us. It should be used as fuel to your fire. The positive is just to say I see the change and its working. Its to comfirm that we on the right track even when we mess up. I love this where this new wind is taking you... just be sure that you apply what the new wind brings to yourself daily....
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